deepuniverse

i dont know how to feel right now. i just dont want to be a burden to my friend, C. all that ive been thinking about is that i want to be myself and that im not enough to anyone.

i dont want to confess to him that im afraid to lose my only friend right now, and, honestly, if i lose him, ill be alone forever because i dont want to make new friends.

i like (romantically) a girl that i met like 3 years ago, and i cant even start a conversation with her. i feel lost again and so afraid that ill end up alone forever.

i feel like no one likes me and that im so tiring and problematic.

i miss being a child, i miss being who i was before....

i looked in the mirror today and i felt so awful and i still feel like that.

i just want help. i need help. how much i can take it?

someone help me.
someone help me.
someone help me.
someone help me.
someone help me.
someone help me.

im going crazy.
im going crazy.

help.

ill end up alone.
and if i die before i can finally be who i am?

i just wanted to be myself.
please.
please.
please.