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insecurities
Sep. 3rd, 2024 08:35 pmhi again, im here to talk a little bit about a thing that happened today. well, i was with my friend and then i started singing the rap part of oh my god (english version) by gidle and then he said to me "have you dreamed of being a singer?" I said yes and then he said "you shouldnt" i know it was a joke but i felt really sad, and i started to think too much about that.
it felt just like a bucket of cold water falling over me after realizing that my voice is horrible for singing. my dream is (or was) being a singer, write my own songs, produce them by myself, but i gave up before starting it. then i started to realize, i gave up on making my dreams come true before even started. i love to sing, i love music. when i was a child i asked to my mom to go to the voice kids, ive always liked to sing, even in the church (when i belived in god). and now, i dont even defend my little me, saying that this its been my dream in a long time and that ill never do it anyway and say thank you to say that to me in a ironic way, even if it is a joke.
sometimes i cant tell when its just a joke, i feel like its something that was truly said to me, sometimes i dont understand irony or jokes and i just feel it hit my heart. and hurts. but i dont want them to know, i dont want them to be sad. i have so many insecurities, a lot. of them. i guess that, everything in me is a different insecurity. and its not their fault that they exist.
if god exists, this song is how he made me feel.
well, thats it guys, goodbye.
it felt just like a bucket of cold water falling over me after realizing that my voice is horrible for singing. my dream is (or was) being a singer, write my own songs, produce them by myself, but i gave up before starting it. then i started to realize, i gave up on making my dreams come true before even started. i love to sing, i love music. when i was a child i asked to my mom to go to the voice kids, ive always liked to sing, even in the church (when i belived in god). and now, i dont even defend my little me, saying that this its been my dream in a long time and that ill never do it anyway and say thank you to say that to me in a ironic way, even if it is a joke.
sometimes i cant tell when its just a joke, i feel like its something that was truly said to me, sometimes i dont understand irony or jokes and i just feel it hit my heart. and hurts. but i dont want them to know, i dont want them to be sad. i have so many insecurities, a lot. of them. i guess that, everything in me is a different insecurity. and its not their fault that they exist.
if god exists, this song is how he made me feel.
well, thats it guys, goodbye.
